"Pain"

A poem written by Lua Harmsen on June 15, 2014

"Pain"

I'm desensotized

It's not right

It's not free

You should not feel your feelings

You should not cry

You ahould not speak

You are worthless

You're wrong

You're weak

Why should you have the luxury to feel what you feel?

When I live day by day 

Living through pain constantly

It will wear off

You'll get used to it

You little piece of shit

I hope you never heal fully

I hope you have to live with it

If you keep working

Someday you'll deserve a break

Some far off day

In wonderland

Where the streets are paved with gold

You can wear a pretty thorny crown

If you do just what you're told

It doesn't matter how you feel

Your body just lies to you

It wants to make you think you can do thiings you can't do

Or live a life you want

Or simply escape the pain

You're worthless 

And you're hopeless

There's no point 

It's all the same

Those people around you want you dead, 

Or in the palm of their hand

Why would any of them care if you ever stopped feeling pain?

There's nothing left to do but let go because they constantly demand